Paving my Life Through Grief and Depression

Grief. Depression. Sadness. These are things that people don’t want to bother others with or talk about. Over the last year my world has turned upside down. I lost my grandmother in June 2015 and 6 months later I lost my mom. I’ve had my fair share of grief to say the least and suffer from depression that comes in waves. Handling these feelings have really helped me to see life for what it’s worth, to grow, and to learn how to find support in the things that make me happy. We all pave our lives differently and some are harder than others. The important part is that through life’s struggles, we press on. That is what I’m doing. 


Being able to connect with things I love to do has been the foundation to my journey’s path. Without these things I would crumble. I would lose my mind in the overwhelming sadness.


Fitness. It’s always been my thing. I used to be in track and field when I was younger loving the freedom of running and working out. Fitness was such a big part of my life and I still remember the day my mom took me to a 24 Hour Fitness and signed me up for a gym membership. I was only 15 years old. She was my #1 cheerleader and always supported me through my journey.pavepara-4 Now at 30 years old, I still find my joy through fitness and exercise. The motivation may lack a little but I try to take myself back to my 15 year old self and remember how it was when exercise was freedom and not a burden. Exercise and fitness has not only been an outlet for stress but has nourished my mind and body through these tough times. 


They say death makes your relationships stronger with your family and friends. This I can say has been true for me. Surrounding yourself with people who love you and truly care for you is the best thing you can do for yourself. Andrew has been my rock through this crazy journey. Comforting me through my sporadic sobbing episodes, helping me find the silver lining on those days where I just hate everything, and calming me down when I’m 100% sure I’m losing my mind.  

On top of the comfort from family and Andrew, you always have to have that “sista from anotha mista” that you can count on. Thank God I have one of those. You really find out who your friends are through tough times. I remember in high school having a ton of friends was the thing. Having my handful of friends was always enough for me though. Then later down the road your handful of friends slowly dwindle.I’ve always been true to quality over quantity when it comes to friendship. The one’s that care for you, as family, are the ones that you won’t scare off when things hit the fan. I’m so grateful to have these people in my life. 


Creativity has not only been a huge stress reliever but also a great occupier. Having this blog and creating content has been my creative outlet. Creating photos and learning how to use a DSLR has been a huge journey in itself. Capturing moments and memories help me create a unique space to call my own. I must have got this from my grandmother. She was forever taking pictures and my dad still has all her albums and scrapbooks of those times that she wanted to cherish. 

These have just been a couple things that have helped through my struggles this past year. Finding those things that elevate your mood and lighten up your life are crucial to getting through any tough time. No matter how tough things may seem you have to find the strength to mend your wounded wings and fly again my darlings. paving my life through grief and depression


For this post I’m teaming up with Pavepara and FitApproach. Pavepara’s mission is to bring high quality products that are environmentally friendly and sustainable to women of all lifestyles. All their clothing is ethically made in the USA from merino wool that is not only sustainable but also naturally moisture wicking, antimicrobial, washable, and durable. 

What’s unique about Pavepara is that birds are the key inspiration in the design process. Each piece in the collection is inspired by a certain bird species and their beautiful characteristics. 2% of PavePara’s profits go to bird conservation and research. 

paving my life through grief and depression

I have to say the things I love about Pavepara apparel is how comfortable and versatile each piece is. I could totally rock the Mountain Chickadee tank with some jeans to go out and run errands, on a run with my Alpine Swift shorts, or even on a cool fall day paired with the Wings arm warmers. There so many possibilities with their pieces. 


Pavepara is spreading the love with a 30% discount with coupon code SWEATPINKLOVE

They want you to enjoy life off the pavement and want you to be comfortable while doing it. 

What has helped you through grief and tough times?

How have you found strength to pave your own journey?

Let me know in the comments below. 

xoxo, christine

This post is sponsored by Pavepara and Fit Approach. All thoughts and opinions are my own. See Disclosure.



    • collectivelychristine@gmail.com
      November 14, 2016 / 12:29 PM

      Thank you! 🙂

  1. November 4, 2016 / 4:14 PM

    I have gone through my own times like these, and I agree, exercise and self care are so important! Thanks for sharing your experiences!

  2. November 4, 2016 / 6:01 PM

    Those arm thingers are so cool! I love the photos you took and the purple looks great on you too!

  3. November 6, 2016 / 2:47 AM

    I am so sorry for your losses. <3 I lost my dad to lung cancer almost three years ago and the grief is a still a struggle. Fitness really helps me too. <3

    • collectivelychristine@gmail.com
      November 14, 2016 / 12:28 PM

      I’m sorry for your loss too. Cancer is such a horrible disease. It’s still very surreal for me. But thank God for the support around us.

  4. November 6, 2016 / 5:45 PM

    I am so sorry about your losses. And, also so happy you have found support and that you are taking care of yourself. It’s vitally important that you do just that! I found myself deep in depression about a year ago. It is a scary thing to battle and one people definitely do not want to talk about, and yet it is so common that we absolutely must. Thanks for sharing your story.

    • collectivelychristine@gmail.com
      November 14, 2016 / 12:27 PM

      Thank you. It has been quite the journey but one filled with great lessons and growth.

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